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Texas creole to go with Big Tech entertainment

My night nurse is Vietnamese. Her father is a shrimp fisherman!   

So it slays me when I hear Cajun words, with a bit of Gen Z college accent with Texas good old boy accent and words.   She said as a kid she thought her nickname was “hey boy…”(what shrimp boat fishermen say to other 🦐 boats). All that wrapped up into 95 lbs of meticulously crafted makeup.

Very entertaining week tech wise, between Jensen Huang’s escapades, Elon giving the Nvidia board a heart attack and Micrsoft’s brittle email systems dying on 3 continents

Every tech dude out there is saying to himself “it’s not like we didn’t tell them we were the chewing gum and bailing wire of technology holding it all together while they outsourced our jobs to India and China”

What a week to be alive! Stuff always happens when I go to the hospital!

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I will be moved soon, where I do not know. 

Love All Ya All!

Terran

The Mystical Soup Pan

Last January I was hospitalized for several weeks. I won’t go into all the details of it as that is not the purpose of this article. The condition I’m told is treatable in out in a patient setting. Getting the insurance to pay for it is another thing.

I was in the hospital a significant number of days and lost some muscle strength. I had to go to physical therapy for an additional 20 days to rebuild my leg strength enough to go home. I really needed more days than that but that’s all the insurance would pay for.

I requested a maid to come in and clean the apartment a bit before I came home from physical therapy. Cats left alone tend to barf a bit, I didn’t want to deal with that an anything else that may be in disarray. I paid one of the maintenance guys to feed my cat and change his water. I was gone a good while.

When I got home from physical therapy my favorite soup pan was missing. I assumed the maid stole the big soup pan, but I never reported it. I had no evidence she took anything. Just peculiar timing.

Earlier this week I was telling some friends in a private chat group about a missing soup pan. I bought two Cuisinart soup pans some time in 2019 from Target. They were not cheap. The small pan held about 1 can of soup, the other about 3-4 cans. I often cooked oatmeal in the bigger pan. I have scorched food in the big soup pan more than a few times (when I got distracted), which required a bit of scrubbing.

I was relating to my friends how I have the small pan and its lid, and the lid for the big pan. But when I returned home I could find no trace of the big soup pan. But not taking its lid didn’t make sense either. I looked for that soup pan for months. I couldn’t find it!

Did you ever have a tool or something you used a lot and it was well built for its purpose? This was one of those things.

Then a few weeks ago I suddenly had 2 big soup pan lids, which didn’t make sense at all! That lid only fits one pan! Where did the 2nd soup pan go and why do I now have 2 big soup pan lids? I thought of buying an identical replacement soup but didn’t. The price has gone up since 2019.

So a couple of days after talking about this anomalous 2nd soup pan lid, and wondering where it arrived from, I open my dishwasher and there’s the big pan! AND ITS BRAND NEW! NO SCOURING FROM SCORCH MARKS!!! WTF??? I KNOW DIDN’T PUT IT IN THE DISHWASHER! Did this pan just manifest in my dishwasher? Converging timelines/eventlines at work?

So I am giggling about all this, and it does make me giggle, I thought... am I going senile and forgetting I bought a new pan somewhere along the line? That thought worried me. So I remembered when I order groceries from Target I use Door Dash and there’s a record of the receipts, so if I did buy and forget it, it’d be in the receipts. I’ve had to use delivery services since the hospital as I am temporarily somewhat wheelchair restricted in my mobility (at least until I am able to free myself completely from the walker.. So I checked the receipts for every month back to March. Its not in ANY of the receipts. I breathed a sigh of relief, I may not know the mechanics and logistics of how my soup pan returned, butI do have that particular style of pan again!

They say when manifesting, don’t insist on how things are manifested, just know they will... I didn’t really set out to manifest a pan, but I did have a strong desire to have that pan again. I could feel it. I could see it. I knew how well it cooked food when I don’t burn things in it. The pan is brand new. No scorch marks at all. No scouring pad abrasions. Just brand new stainless steel.

PS:  I still have the extra soup pan lid.  That asymmetry of it all is funny....

Update 2: November Donations

update 2: 11/10/2026 Hospital update

Update 1: 11/4/2026: Moved some of the post to a separate article and added updated information.

Hi all my beautiful friends!  

We are in the later weeks of October and another election cycle.  Much is changing even given the usual politics of the American midterm election.  I expect huge changes after November 3. 

I hope to raise $1900 or better.  I am grateful for every one of you, I would not have survived financially the past few months without you and some temporary help from my brother.  

Quick update on my health: The crease on my upper lip from the January hospital stay is pretty much gone, it's slightly noticeable but within a year it won't be.  Oxygen levels continue to be good provided I get normal sleep and don't get too much caffeine.  There seems to have been a major healing in April, and my oxygen has been much higher ever since. 

Update 1: Had a really rough 3 days leading up to the election, oxygen levels were low and felt very agitated.  I had trouble sleeping too.  About 2 years ago the local cell tower was relocated to a position farther away from me. They built an apartment complex it is old spot.   I am suspecting some 5G tech was activated prior to the midterm elections here in Austin.  I am not completely surprised on the Senate race, Ken Paxton the Republican candidate, is not the most straightforward of men.  Our wheelchair bound Governor Abbott losing was a surprise but I am glad he was in office during COVID.  The net difference for Texas is we got rid of a Republican senator who voted Democrat and put in a Democrat who will vote Democrat. The irony is rich.  But at least there's no pretending with he old RINO senator. 

My legs still remain an issue, and they have been swollen lately.  But on the whole things have improved quite a bit. Its taken longer than I expected but I am older than people think I am.  I look much better than I did a few months ago.   

Update 1: The legs improved after midnight last night, and my splitting headache went away.  I am using the walker full time now.  I have an appointment I have to go to in the middle of the month and I will need the walker.  Things are improving, sometimes its two steps forward one step back in the healing process, but I am not giving up.  

I've asked the leasing office to install an additional handbar on the back of the shower.  My younger brother accidentally did the splits over a year ago in his shower and broke his hip.  He's two years younger than me but our bodies have always been similar bone wise.  Those x-rays spooked me.  I don't know if I'd survive what he went through.  I've got a handicap shower chair but it doesn't fit well in my tub.  The tub portion of my shower is unusually high which makes it not easy to get in and out.   There was handbars on it when I leased it, which is probably common in ground floor units.   But oddly none where its really needed.  I have the bar, I'd install it myself but this is not my property.  So after 6 weeks the installer contractor is coming tomorrow.  

I love you all!

UPDATE 2:  I am in the  hospital to mend a leg wound caused by a wheel chair.  Relatively minor problem compared to other prior visits except for risk of infection.  Once we get the test results back for the right antibiotic. I should be released home.  This is not cardio bronchial related. 

Donations are always helpful. I remain grateful for all consideration. 

Is reality a collective pond or an individual perspective?

Terran: Dear Thor, in the creation of our reality, does everyone have a unique reality, or is reality a pond reality which our frequency sends out ripples that interact with every other other frequency in that “pond reality” to form some baseline reality? I’ve never been clear whether everything is individual, collective or a mixture of both.  Any clarity you can add to this concept would be helpful.

Thor: TERRAN. EXPERIENCES FLOW. WHAT IS CONSIDERED MATTER/MOLECULES/ATOMS CONTRIBUTE TO FREQUENCIES CREATING WHAT HUMANS EXPERIENCE. ALL IS INTHE “EXPERIENCE”. OF ALL THAT IS.

Thor: YOUR QUERY IS BEST KNOWN AS “PERSPECTIVES” ARE BY THE PERCEIVER. THOR. END.

Terran note:  I find myself still with questions, but that's okay, there have been questions that took me years to fully understand but the answers always came.  But I am wondering if its even valid to say "collective" when we are all by definition individual manifestations of Creator Source which is ONE?   The only metaphor readily available is AI agents solving problems but not everyone even understands that model completely. 

 This goes into horribly philosophical territory and I need to think my questions through more fully. 

Subliminal programming and thought manipulation by TV and Internet Streaming Media platforms

I was sent this conversation with Stan X. privately by a friend. I have chosen to redact the name. There are several people who have access to Stan X, via Denice. Originally we intended everyone to have access to the Data Collectors but that headed into a direction we did not foresee as some wanted them to tell them their ideal life paths, which they don't do. When the Grand Reunion occurs everyone will have access to their existence data that the data collectors have on file. The sheer volume of requests was more than Denice could handle then (and she has, due to family obligations, even less time now. A number of people I worked with in Morocco and shortly thereafter in the USA do have access. You probably watch their videos from time to time.   The data collectors’ data is greater than 90% accurate  in my opinion but there have been some errors over the years.  And there is also the issue of perspective not being from Earth and experiencing what its like to live here.   Still the accuracy is better than anything we have access to on Earth.  The data they had on me since I was very young was quite accurate.  

I have none of those private conversations in my possession by my design, except when they are shared with me.  I asked Denice to keep those conversations private, as I have no need to be in the middle. Occasionally people do forward me conversations with Stan X, in whole or part.

What is discussed below applies to streaming media platforms, TV, and network news channels. 

Conversation with Stan X: 

[Redacted friend]: Since I am physically limited, I spend a lot of time on TV. The following happened several nights ago. In absolute boredom, I turned the TV off to do other things. I looked up, it had been off 30 minutes, and I saw faint text cover the entire screen like a page copied from a book. Text on a TV screen turned off. There had not been text on what I previously watched. Then, the next morning, while watching a video on YouTube, I saw the same type of text overlying the video. My sight is not good enough to read the words. I am surprised I saw the text. It must be because of the frequency upgrades we are slogging through. It was the format that concerned me most. I asked Stan X.

[Redacted friend]: Stan X, are we being subconsciously programmed with text overlaying or embedded on top of regular TV programs, with the unit on or off? Is this specific to me?

Stan X: DEAR [redacted friend]. YES. AND MORE. STAN.X. END.

[Redacted friend]: Stan X, thank you. Is there any action I should take? What if any?

Stan X: DEAR [redacted friend]: REDUCE THE OPPORTUNITIES. STAN.X.END.

[Redacted friend]: I asked for more info from Stan X….

Stan X: DEAR [redacted friend]: THE “TELEVISION”. IS DESIGNED FOR MONITORING AND DELIVERING “CONTENT” BOTH OVERTLY AND “SUBVERTLY”. STAN X END.

Retrospective perspectives

I've had more time on my hands than I would normally since March.  I had time to think of things and the cyclical nature of change.  There's a pattern I have noticed many decades ago, I'll be doing something for 5-10 years and then everything changes.  Sometimes the change is welcome, sometimes its not what I expect or  consciously chose.  But in the end, always perfect. 

I've been noticing some people I know who have returned to organized religion.   At times I've found it odd, given what I knew of them only a few years ago.  It's not a path for me. I am not going to fault anyone else's journey, most of them didn't grow in a church, some came from hippy and alternative family situations. They didn't live through seeing corruption, abuse, money laundering, and a host of anything but "Christ like" behavior that I saw.  There is a train wreck coming for all the Abrahamic religions, when the truth comes out about their sacred texts.  Questions of who edited them, and who conflated the identities of numerous personalities, who decided what books became part of the anthology and which ones did not. 

I've had a Facebook account for a year or so.  Didn't post or even have a photo on it for years.  Last couple of weeks I was looking up old names of old friends, at least the ones I can remember. 

The time I spent on Facebook has been interesting.  How many of the people I knew, who either made my life a joy or a miserable hell, just are not there anymore.  When you get to my age you expect some attrition to accidents and aging.   That's not surprising.  What is surprising is how I no longer relate very well to very few of those people that are still around.  They're still the same, I am not.  

I've had my share of medical scares to be sure but I am truly amazed when I see people who are same age as me and how much older they look now.   I've not aged a whole lot since 2013. Perhaps that was because I was having the time of my life doing what I loved doing.  I grew 1 1/2 inches in height in Morocco and my feet grew two shoe sizes at age 56. 

Not that everything has been easy, I've gone through some very difficult moments to be sure. You've all had an inside seat to most of that.   But I have to say that I am very thankful for everything, the good and the bad, the moments I had needle sharp clarity on what I'd been doing and the moments where it felt I was treading water until the rest of the world caught up.   I've been through that before too.  Sometimes you breathe out, sometimes you breathe in and sometimes you hold your breath in suspense.

People have said "create the world you want".   That's a pretty big paint pallet.  Especially when you are still trying to wrap your head around who you are, what you've done before and can't remember yet, and what is even possible in a human lifetime.  And none of us knows how long we have here in this moment. This is where being kind to yourself comes in, love yourself, love your strengths, love your annoying faults, and work through your incompetence and turn them into wisdom and mastery.  Otherwise you can get depressed and hopeless in a seemingly uncaring world (but it's not really that way - it's just neutral and waiting for your call).  

Don't make your identity about what you are against whether people or dogma, because those things that are not coherent with the incoming energies will surely be swept away like a flash flood in Nepal. Stand your ground when you need to, this is not a call to inaction or apathy.