Things I need to say while I can.

Texas Hill Country

I want to say a few things while I can.  Hopefully in the purest of heart and intent and love towards all.

To my ex wife.  Leaving in 2013 was not easy.  But it was obvious nothing was being resolved. I took the action you suggested in 20009 to heal myself.  And I did heal.  I thank you for that honest soul felt conversation we had.  I had an amazing 12 years of life.  I have no ill will towards you and I learned much from you.  I have always considered you a good person and a person of integrity. We were just a bad match,  you were you and I was me, and we were just so different as to what we wanted from life.  We drove each other nuts. But we had an amazing daughter far beyond what I could have ever hoped to father.  But there's no doubt of paternity when I see her blue eyes. I only wish I could have seen more of her since my return to the USA.  If the fault is mine in that regard I take responsibility for that.  But it takes two to resolve it. 

To my daughter, whatever you may think of me for leaving your mother, I have always loved you beyond measure.  So very proud of you!  That was the last thing I expected but it was all your doing and hard work. Your birth brought me so much joy, and watching you grow up into the intelligent woman you are now makes me so very proud of you.   I love you so very much.  

To General Wong of China.  I forgive you for the bioweapon you used on me.  You probably didn't know that I know what you did.  I have had to deal with it since 2008, which has been mostly dormant until recent weeks.  I did die the first time but the Creator of All had other plans and I was brought back to life.  What you meant in harm served to awaken me in ways I could never imagine.  So perhaps I should thank you?  You certainly didn't have my consent.  I know you have time line view technology like the USA does and you knew who I would meet before I knew.   But there is a flow within the ALL, that neither man nor technology can alter.   If you want the Mandate of Heaven, and truly care for China, do what is in the best interest of ALL HUMANITY.  No country stands alone any more.  Everything is too interconnected (and honestly it always interconnected energetically) as you are learning in recent months. 

To my brothers, I love you both.  I am so glad you were my brothers.  You probably never understood me, but someday you will. Thank you for being there anyway.  

To Beverly, thank you for being my friend in Texas, and giving me shelter in the Hill Country when I returned from Italy.   Your  artistic creativity with your property is astounding and your intuitive gifts, and knowledge of natural healing remedies was always appreciated by me even when I sounded grumpy. I am sorry I could not help much in a search for a new car since August, but you know the reasons why, and you found a great car locally. I am so pleased with the spiritual leaps you have made in recent months.   So much growth since 2016!  Keep it up my friend!

To Shawn, what an existence you have had on Earth!  So many pages of history have you in it.  I thank you for that dry sense of humor that always makes me laugh.  It's razor sharp.  My favorite memory is watching you take two dogs and a cat on a leash free walk through the forest like they are all one big family.  Your gift with animals is amazing.  They recognize and love you.  So do people actually.  Lean into that knowing. 

To Denice, you transcribed our first interview with Heather and then became part of a larger story in 2014.  Of all "comms" people your data has been clearer than any other I have encountered.   Thank you for answering Thor's call when he called.  It has been life changing to me, and what errors I made I did so with a small audience.  My awareness has been growing over time, and when I look back on older blog posts I see much I didn't catch in the moment and things I never thought to ask our nonlocal friends.  Still its all been a wonder talking to Thor, SherrAn, Riggolt, Andreas, Stan X, and Dr Raeno.

To Heather, thank you for asking Brian Kelly and me "Do you want to have some fun?"  I had no idea what I was stepping into or where it would lead, I just knew and felt that somehow I knew you and trusted you.  It was years later that I learned why I had that recognition.  We have a long history.  Thank you for your patience with me, I haven't always understood everything you said to me, but I always did later. I don't know what you are working on these past months, but I know it's important.  I know you will finish what you started.  You always have.  See you on the flip when you show yourself once more. Thank you for teaching me what unconditional Source love was and the power of it.  I have only known transactional and conditional love most of my life.  It's all most people here on Earth every experience except from their pets.

To my blog readers, thank you for bearing with me.  Thank you for donating.  You're very precious audience to me which I have done my best to respect.   I still have $300 in bills due on Monday.  I have no idea how I am going to pay that.  My legs were leaking so much water I haven't been able to work. I had to put a towel down on the floor in front of the couch at times to keep from slipping.  I have never experienced that before, not even in 2008-2009.  Perhaps it's a purge of toxins in the legs? I really don't know.  These are not diabetes ulcers from what I can tell, it looks like what I had in 2009. 

My oxygen levels are dropping.  I may have to go to the hospital.   I never know how these things end up.   They have been unnervingly been correlating with high incoming energies to the planet and my legs are a mess right now of wounds from this chronic thing I got in my calves 2008.  I am more concerned about the potential for septicemia than the heart at this moment but my O2 levels are not high. Septicemia is a lot harder to treat.  I don't want this leg thing to get out of hand.  I lack the knowledge and expertise to resolve it.

Advice from a Geezer

 

Not me. But then again could be
every man of my era.

I've been thinking about things I wish I knew when I was younger, now that I am firmly ensconced in geezerhood.   Perhaps this is a message, in part, to the younger me? 

The TV series "Leave it to Beaver" was pure fiction, the 1950s were never like that.  People were just as messed up in the 1950s, it was just hidden better.  Still, it was a good clean show for kids.  But the pattern was not the reality. 

As a male, when it comes to women, you are a means to an end, a family.  Sure they love you enough to want you, but when tough times come, you will be blamed. Civilization is kept alive by females. It's repopulated by females.  They will never be as romantic about you as you are of them.  You are a useful asset.  You can lift things, fix things and open jars. Women are very pragmatic.   You'll have to come to terms with that.  Women can and do out plan, out scheme any man they live with.  They pick up on nuances that you do not.  Pay attention to what they pay attention to, you may just find it helps you. In western countries you will not get credit for your efforts.  That may change over time in society but it won't be in your generation.  You will be tested as to every boundary simply because women want to know what you are made of.   Love yourself.  Be kind to yourself. Respect yourself and stand your ground when you need to do so. Ignore the market banter for what is important. 

It's a lot harder to get unmarried than married. Society has made marriage a greased slide into a legal union so make sure you know the person you are about to marry.  Religion will not guarantee you a good marriage.  In some cases it may inhibit it, depending on the severity of the faith and its response to human sex drives.  Marriage is a three party contract between you, your mate and the state.  That's what gives the state the power to decide what to do with your assets and children on divorce.  Divorce doesn't cancel the contract, it amends it. 

Earth marriages are not perfect, but it can be a good place for kids to grow up, depending on the parents.  If your marriage is a bad one, leave it.  Your child will blame you for the trauma they feel, but they will also do that if you stay for 20 years and then leave.  You will not be thanked for enduring. There is no good way to end a marriage.  Do not expect your child to side with you, they are after all, 1/2 the person you married. But sometimes you have to leave for your own well being and health.  There is only so much contention a person can withstand.  Passive aggressiveness is also its own form of contention more akin to Chinese water torture. It is not love.  It's the ice pick in the night to the tire of manliness. 

If you are into science, go for deeper science behind Engineering and Electronics.  Learn logic, then learn its pardoxical pitfalls, which underlay all of law, religion, and government.  AI will replace much of what we know as computer coding.  It's already doing so.  But the mental discipline and logic training will train you mentally.  You'll see through psyops and disinformation. 

Learn languages.  As many as you can, but at the very least the ones you are likely to encounter in your country and places you'd like to spend time in. 

Exercise regularly, even if it's just walking.  Take up some form of regular stretching whether it's yoga, tai chi, or pilates.  Being flexible and limber becomes really important after age 55.  If you smoke, take Vitamin C as cigarettes consume Vitamin C which is why smokers tend to get more wrinkles and have aging skin.  Vitamin C is essential for collagen creation. 

Avoid wheat, especially American wheat. Travelers know this well, you can lose 20 pounds in just a few weeks by going to Europe.  The wheat genetics are different there.  Learn to eat sparingly.  This one I have known since I kept tropical and reef aquariums, fish fed every other day live longer and healthier than those fed daily.  Not that I followed that, but as you age you need less food, but proteins remain important.  

Birthdays age you more than calendar years because it's a mental countdown on how you are supposed to look at a given age.  You didn't come into this world with an expiration date stamped on your butt.  The natural human life span in this galaxy in a stress free and pollution free environment is around 200-300 years.  Perhaps longer. 

Be happy, it's a choice.  Every emotion is a choice as to its duration.  Don't avoid emotions, let the negative ones flow through you, feel them but don't attach. Let them go.  Be very careful with anger, if maintained it will tear your body apart. 

That's just what is coming off the top of my head at the moment.  This article will likely get refined a bit over the next few days.

I love you all!

PS: My brother broke his leg and is the hospital rehab in Salt Lake City for the next month.  We have very similar bodies.  Please send him healing energy for rapid bone repair and balance.  My youngest brother is heading there next week to move him to a ground floor apartment.