I have had a rough end of summer. In August I fought off a repeat of the "hospital cycle" and got past that without going to the hospital and broke that 3 year pattern. I bought a book on breath work, discovered my breathing habits are not helping. I have been working on that consciously a few times a day hoping that what is a practice becomes muscle memory internally and it is indeed helping with my O2 readings up 5%. I have found the pulmonary doctors of more help than the cardiologists as to giving me some clues as to what has been going on. The lungs and heart are really one system, but our medical system is so reductionist it sees nothing as a complete system. Cardiologist couldn't tell me what caused what I had, but could name it several ways. And I don't completely even fit the description. I find I can heal somethings about myself but then knocked sideways by something else. I'm learning.
My legs broke out with the 2009 infection in September (mostly the right leg) but now seem to be healing decently. Much improved in the last 2 days. I was really shocked at how quickly that healing sped up with I bought some Elderberry juice from Sprouts Grocery. Whatever is in that stuff its make a noticeable difference. My cardiologist thinks the bands on my legs are Chronic Venous Insufficiency (which Trump was recently diagnosed) but I think it's just the gunk from 2009. But it does look like the text book pictures of CVI. I am hesitant about the shockwave therapy for it for the same reason I would not get a tattoo on that part of my body, lest an opportunistic infection takes advantaged of traumatized skin. Silver gel works quite well on it. I doesn't require high end antibiotics.
I've withdrawn a bit from X, it's so turbulent in there with all the unanswered questions about events and the deliberate misinformation from both "white hats" and "black hats". I find myself confronting my own biases when I watch videos only to find out that I was about to presume was hugely incorrect. These energies are shaking everything loose around us and with us. Heather advised me in such moments "Heart center, Source center". To stay in balance amid all the polarity turbulence right now.
I am seeing much the same thing in the passengers I drive, and a lot of them smell like weed. The marijuana people smoke in Austin is really smells like a skunk. Sometimes an entire apartment block will smell that way. My first thought is always that I ran over a skunk, then the second thought is it's just another person who tanked up on weed before going to work. In Tennesee my car smelled like whiskey, but lately in Austin its skunk weed. I don't enjoy the aroma.
I'd like to bring in $900 or better in donations, but as it all flows and as you feel. I am grateful for any consideration. I really do need donations this month. August was very slow, but then its always been that way historically.
I love you all!
Terran
