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Yesterday I was given some time to be outside in the sun under clear blue skies. It was glorious and refreshing. A little time off from physical therapy to enjoy some apple juice in the Sun. I can use a walker but not yet for extended periods
I was in a wheelchair which I moved to a more open area to get more light. A few moments later a stack of wood pallets fell in that spot so it’s a good thing I moved. There were three gals 10-20 years older than me, some more able than others. One or two have wheeled themselves in my door to chat. When you are in a medical institution little things are a big deal because often meals are the only thing to look forward to. Conversation helps left the spirits too.
I noticed one of the nurses outside wore a crucifix and had a shirt that said “Thrivent”. (Thrivent Financial for Lutherans) is a member-owned fraternal benefit society and not-for-profit financial services headquartered in Minneapolis, Minnesota. Thrivent emphasizes that “money is a tool, not a goal. I llearned about the company name when I lived in Minnesota.
This afternoon a woman came into my room to chat she’s a new occupational therapist here, they help people do the normal things of life while recovering their mobility.
I asked her Are you Lutheran?Surprised, she said Yes I am! How did you know? It was the Thrivent shirt you wore yesterday. Well, she said we’re the nice Lutherans we like everyone! (Apparently the ones from Missouri and Wisconsin are mean). I believe the Holy Spirit surrounds me at all times and then she said some other things which made it clear she is very aware.
I’ll get to the reason I asked in a moment. It had to do with a very vivid dream I had while in ICU. I had very rough day, and I remember asking my essence brothers for assistance, Nabrac, Thor and others. From Thor I felt a great encouragement energy.
Nabrac took me a place in a dream (vision?) where there were three buildings that had roofs similar to just one roof of the Sydney Opera House. It was a very futuristic place and people lived in these buildings.
Under this roof was a group gathering place and I was watching people in the center of the room and this gold sparkling dust like a Fourth of July sparkler was coming from their heads. I understood these to be very strongly held beliefs. The beliefs were holding them back from expansion.
Nabrac tells me “you have the power to lessen the hold this has on them”, and I found I could sprinkle a lighter colored gold sparkles and the attachment they had lessened and fell to the ground and they were able to let go of them. It’s was as if they had been hypnotized by life here. We went through this again at two other buildings.
At the third building I spotted my ICU nurse and she seemed very confused to see me. I told Nabrac I needed to go speak to her.
She lived in a white vinyl clad condo. We entered the house and her father was in a yellow and blue floral cloth recliner chair drinking German wine from a ceramic glazed bottle in the shape of Martin Luther. He’s the founder of the Lutheran Church (he was known to imbibe beer).
I introduced myself and asked him if he was a Lutheran, which he was so excited to talk about. You’d think it was a football team.
I excused myself for a moment to find the restroom, I opened some curtains but it turned out to be a laundry room. I stumbled on something and lost my balance. A mixed race girl, her adopted child, walks in. She tells me she wants to be a nurse like her mommy and puts a stethoscope on my chest and wipes my brow. She seems to get larger and larger and says “do you want me to be your nurse?” And I felt really really awkward. I said “NO!” And she vanishes and it felt like I left a realm only to find my arms restrained to the sides of the hospital bed (something I hate but it’s a common practice when a patient is intubated and sedated to keep them from pulling the tubes out) the transition was so fast it really surprised me. It was like I fell through a wall.
The whole Lutheran thing has baffled me. Who was this little girl with the prankster energy?
So I told my occupational nurse, as much as I felt comfortable in this setting.
She said , “the little girl is probably a child the mother lost. She was offering you a choice, her mother’s care on Earth or her care in that realm (my word not hers, she said Heaven). You chose Earth because you can help people. And you’re good at it.
The answer made complete sense.
The Lutheran thing was just the energetic trail to the answer.
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