Its exhausting to pretend you are not all that is!

I have been thinking about the last 4 years going back to summer of 2022.  hospital stays. All the strange things I have seen and experienced while in the hospital. Experiencing being treated as number and seeing and feeling much more of me coming through to keep me alive.  The long slow exploration of what the causes are.  Because it turned out not to be the standard explanation and a much more nuanced thing.  The years of things, that are hard to explain to others, but which were very real to me.  

I was pondering all that, and this thought came in, from perhaps the larger part of me,  "It's exhausting to pretend you are not all that is!"   It wasn't a judgement. It was a statement of fact.   And I laughed at that and thought of all the programmed limitations that are within me.  In the California Sierra mountains, you will find cattle guard rails that are not metal, there's no pit below, it's just painted on the pavement.  Cows will not cross it.    They still think their feet will get trapped and if you are a cow, that's probably one of their top fears after mountain lions and wolves. 

Who am I to think I must become decrepit as I age?  Who am I to think I have to age at all with each birthday?  Who am I to think of myself unworthy of complete love from ALL THAT IS?  Who am I to think I cannot heal unless I get access to the healing chamber I was promised 10 years ago?  Who am I to feel lonely when I am surrounded by loving hearts and minds?

I don't have a nice essay on how to be fully embrace being all that is to place before you right now.  I am still working through that.  I do know someone that embraced that journey more than a decade ago.  

I suspect it's a personal journey, with a lot of self examining of what I say and what I do, and the restrictions come off the more I express the love that is ALL that IS.   I suspect like any creation there's an interactive side to it, the more we learn the more we refine our technique.

I have no use for terms of separation, whether is religious, political, and find myself cringing when I hear it. 

All this will sound like word salad some new to this blog.  And that's okay.  We all start somewhere from some state of conscious.  I am quite used to being thought of as a bit kooky.  I don't care if I get to where I want to be. 

This post will be updated a number of times I am sure.  There are thoughts that are not fully formed within me yet, working their way through to the surface.   

Early this morning I ran into this video clip from Bashar.   The audio quality is not great so I am including the transcript here, and this link to the video clip.  It fits very well with what I was trying to express above.

Bashar Transcript 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rQEgK4EL_aE

There are only four absolute laws in creation.

Just four. That’s it. Just four.
1, 2, 3, 4. That’s it. There are no more laws.

Now, when we say law, we are not talking about rules.
We’re talking about laws that cannot be broken.
Cannot be broken. Impossible to break. That’s why they’re laws.

Anything else — anything that can be broken — is not a law.
It’s an agreement, a rule, a convenience, whatever you wish to call it. It’s not a law.
Even some of what you call your laws of physics are not laws, because they don’t apply everywhere in every dimension of experience. Only perhaps to your dimension, your reality.

But the four laws, briefly, before we continue, are this.

Law Number One: YOU EXIST.

 

You will never change that.
You will never, ever not exist.
You will change. You will never not exist.
Existence only has one quality: TO BE.

That which does not exist is different — is the other side of the coin. And both sides must be present to create the coin, or neither side can be. So if there is existence, the other side of the coin is non-existence, and that which does exist will always be one side of the coin. 

There is no room in non-existence for things that exist, because non-existence is already completely full with everything that will never exist. There is no room for existence in non-existence. One will never become the other, but both come from the one.

So that’s law number one. You exist, and you always will, and you always have.

Law Number Two: The One is the ALL. The all are The One.

Every piece is not only a part of the whole, but every piece is the whole expressing itself as a part of the whole.

That’s the holographic paradox. 

 

And THE ALL is all the pieces together, but knows itself as The One and all the pieces that it is.

There is nothing outside the one. All the pieces are the one. There is no outside.

Law Number Three: What you put out is what you get back.

I think most of you are familiar with that to some degree.

Law Number Four: Everything changes except the first three laws.

Everything changes except the first three laws — which means even the fourth law changes.

Time is speeding up

I have had this sense for a number of years that linear time as we perceive it has been speeding up.  This moment of rising awareness is also called "The Quickening" by some. 

Its hard thing to prove being that any physical device (mechanical clock) or energy reference device (atomic clock) one could use is by definition also speeding up as it's all within this illusion of light we call physicality.  

Yet we can sense it because our minds are outside of time.  We feel it. It's why we do things in advance of something happening/manifesting in the present now.  And sometimes when were are really focused on a creation, time doesn't move at all. 

I found this short video on how to prove it via a completely analog means and it makes sense.   I used this technique as a kid to determine how far away a lightening strike was, which is about a mile per second in the time delay of the thunder from the flash.  

I thought I'd drop this short video here if you are interested in how to prove time is speeding up.   This is nothing earth changing in itself but it's so simple to do.   I don't agree with many things Dick Algire says about the future of money, but this test of his on time speeding up is pure brilliance. 

Was the LOC moon base attacked by rogue Nazi spaceships?

As most of my readers know, there have been human bases on the moon since, and likely prior to WWII.   The Russians were the first to develop antigravity aircraft, but the Bolshevik Revolution seemed to have shifted Russian priorities.  

The Germans also developed antigravity craft during WWII, my dad saw a few pf them when he flew P38 missions over Germany.  They couldn't catch them.  The Germans also had supersonic aircraft long before Chuck Yeager.  US pilots couldn't catch those either.  

I grew up knowing UFOs were real because my dad would tell me about them when I worked for him during the summer months off from school. Dad was in military intelligence, a secret he took to his grave and the was a man that liked to gab.  Mom told after the funeral service that he was in military intelligence.  My brothers and I looked at each other in disbelief.  Men in WWII kept their secrecy oaths to their graves. 

After WWII the USA confiscated scientific research and scientists as they occupied Germany, as did the Russians.  Both countries continued to develop their own programs, sometimes sharing information.  During the cold ware there was cooperation with Russia in space matters.  

A rogue faction of Nazis managed to escape to South America and Antartica.   Admiral Byrd encountered them during his excursions in Antartica.  US aircraft and men were killed during those attacks.  The US reached some sort of agreement with the rogue Nazis to keep their whereabouts secret in exchange for not being attacked.  We simply didn't have the technology to deal with that problem during Admiral Byrd's time. 

Recently there has been reported attacks on the LOC lunar base as well as the abandoned Antarctic Nazi UFO base.  These Nazis were driven off Earth around 2022-2023.   I decided to reach out to Thor for a bit more clarity on that.  

NONLOCALS is a term Heather has used since I met her for beings not native to Earth. There are some non-human beings "LOCALS" on Earth living in the crust and undersea that have been here a very long time.  They don't usually interact with the surface humans (LOCALS).  Some of them have very advanced technology. 

Moon base attack?

8/27/2026

Terran: Thor, can you confirm the moon bases were attacked by the rogue Nazis? Seems a pretty open secret if it’s on the Internet.

Thor: TERRAN. YES. NOT “NAZIS”.  ROGUES.  THOR.  END.  UNTIL IT IS NOT.  IN HUMOUR.

Terran: Earth faction?

Thor: TERRAN.  NONLOCAL. THOR.  
END. 

This is an interesting video from Dr Michale Salla and Jorge Papon.

 

Ushtogai Khazakistan

Terran: Dear Stan X, what is or was the pyramid type structure at Ushtogai Khazakistan?

https://youtu.be/A55JQnWiqLg?is=-w9st9BXmCRzf-kN

https://youtu.be/lmBE9RoZi4Q?is=tDgsdn1ZYc51_SOR


Stan X: TERRAN. THE STRUCTURE WAS USED FOR CUSTOMS AND RITUALS. THAT IS THE CURRENT DATA. DATA COLLECTORS. STAN X END.

Empath Resurgence

 

PART 1 Something is Happening Right Now to Empaths All Over The World by Carl Jung. #empaths #awakening #awareness

This resonates with me ❤️❤️❤️ pic.twitter.com/HPnuUvH9aJ

— Jenn Whitney (@JennPatriot777) August 13, 2026

Dream 8/05/2026

Terran: I had a dream I was on a water planet with a space port.  I was to meet up with a woman (engineer?) named La-tee-shee-tah.

Terran: Denice, Can you ask Stan X if I know someone in a prior incarnation named LA-TEE-SHEE-TA?  WAS THIS SOME NIGHT TIME ADVENTURE OF MINE IN ANOTHER PLACE/STREAM?

Terran: Real Star Wars new republic vibes to the water world. Semi tropical.  Not heavily populated, felt more like an outpost of something else.

Stan X: TERRAN. NOT DATA. REAL. NOW. MOMENT. ALTERNATE “REALITY”. ORIGINAL EARTH RECORDS ARE COMPLETE. THIS IS NEW DATA. DATA COLLECTORS STAN X END.

Simple healings

I've had two recent healings.  

The first one is this crease across the middle of my upper lip that was about an inch (25mm) long.  The damage came from the hospital during an intubation procedure. Like something heavy was resting on it.  Hidden by a nurse with surgical tape for a bit. Painless mostly.  Discovered by the nurse who worked with my cardiologist. 

There are two folds that run from the bottom of my nose to the middle of my upper lip.  Last week this scar shrunk a lot, the cartilage is reforming and realigning to its proper place.  It's only about 3/8 of an inch (10 mm) long now.  It will be unnoticeable soon.  I don't know if the whiskers in that area will return. But I usually am clean shaven so it won't matter.   I don't have much of a beard worth displaying, most of it is around my mouth and I have no sideburns at all. 

The second one was an experiment I did.  I read that the body sometimes moves toxins to the extremities of the body.  So I wondered if I had a parasite of some sort and perhaps the body was dealing with that by moving its toxins to my lower legs.  I took ivermectin for a week.   I didn't notice much change in my legs but something else did happen!   

I've had an intestinal reaction to coffee since about 1990.   I've classified it as an allergy before. It's gotten worse over the years to the point that I almost never drank coffee at all.   The only time I didn't have that reaction was when I was working with Heather overseas and I can't explain why I didn't, because we drank buckets of espresso coffee.  Maybe it was all the laughing?

I didn't see any obvious signs of parasites leaving my body from ivermectin, thought maybe the experiment was a waste of time.   I guess my mind was expecting exiting vermacelli with emphasis on "verm" but apparently they can be very tiny and not seen at all. 

But something did change!  I can drink coffee now!  No intestinal effect. Coffee is also slightly diuretic which helps with the water in the legs.   I coincidentally found some leg excercises on YouTube  that activate the fluid pumps in the calves and thighs and those work.  I was surprised how quickly my ankles shrank.  This is an ongoing issue that I think has to be addressed from multiple angles, salt consumption, exercise and cortisol control.   But I think it will eventually go away.

My current cardiologist determined I was having heart issues because of the legs, building up fluid and not having leg issues because of the heart as most medical staff are trained to see things.   The perspective makes a huge difference!  I like my cardiologist a lot, he describes himself as an overpaid plumber. 

A healing in April

In about mid April, the energies were so rough that it was nearly a guarantee I'd have to go down for a nap in the afternoon.  Something major shifted in my Cardio-pulmonary system.  Instead of having my oxygen saturation level hover around 90-91% which has been pretty standard for me for years, it's now staying in a band around 95-96%.   This is a hugely beneficial change and I don't expect I'll be going back to the hospital anytime soon.   Its dropped a few times to the 90% range but only briefly before bouncing up again. 

It feels to me we went through the worst of the Earth energy fluxes.  What I am experiencing now is less body reactions and more old emotions popping up from experiences a long time ago to be processed, felt and let go.  Sometimes the dreams are a little off the wall too.